Tuesday, November 27, 2007

KL 271107

in case anyone is looking for me, i'm in KL.
be back on thurs or fri.

Monday, November 26, 2007

live well, laugh often, & love with all your heart

just thought i'd share with you an email my Godpa sent me,
reading it stirred some feelings in me,
such as the Cambodian children and families,
they are facing POVERTY, not just mere poorness.
here we are in Singapore, with hardly any worries, no natural disasters,
yet those in our neighbouring countries are stricken with so many plagues and diseases,
yet here we are, thinking about buying each other Christmas presents,
going shopping in the mall, what to eat, what to wear, getting fussy over this and that,
complaining and whining abt our "sad" and "pathetic" and "full-of-worries" lives,
really, don't we understand what contentment is? or are we just too complacent? or are we too proud to admit we fall within this 'materialistic' category?

the email goes like this: -
I AM THANKFUL:
FOR THE WIFE WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT,

BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME,
AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.

FOR THE HUSBAND WHO IS ON THE SOFA BEING A COUCH POTATO,
BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME
AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.

FOR THE TEENAGER WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME,
NOT ON THE STREETS.

FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM EMPLOYED.

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE.

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING, WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING, AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME .

FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION .

FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM WARM.

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.

AND FINALLY, FOR TOO MUCH E-MAIL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.

SEND THIS TO SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT. I JUST DID.

In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. I Thessalonians 5:18

there is a reason why people celebrate thanksgiving.
it is to thank God for everything and everything He has been providing us right from centuries ago till now.
who are we to complain abt a lack of anything?
whatever happened to acts of charity?
imagine what we could do with all the unnecessary shopping money,
the money spent on excessive eating and eating at restaurants?
of cos it's easy to say: "i need to spoil myself after a long day." or "i worked so hard, so i deserve to enjoy." don't we all fall prey to statements like these?

every year end is the most emotional for me, this is when i start recollecting events that came and went, and what the next year would hold. time to start planning my life ahead.
some pple adviced that i shudnt think too much or too far; others say 'ya, it's gd to plan ahead and know what ure doing.'
it's all abt being in control isn't it?
as we mature or grow older, we're suppose to be wiser. it is very much a cause and effect situation - such as decisions and environmental factors affecting our lives, mold our belives, mannerisms, thoughts and actions and the things we do.
in my own little world, i wished things were different. i wished we didn't have to be so pampered and bratty. i wished we cud learn more abt humility and perseverance.
we have everything and more here on this island. yet it is never enough.
things will never be good enough for us, isn't it?
according to what we're taught in schools, theories such as Maslow's hierarchy of needs...
we know that we are on a constant search for better things, to constantly improve our needs, wants and desires.
time for a reality check people.

1st things 1st, let's do some soul-searching this year end, and truly, be thankful for everything we have. God has been very kind to us. indeed, we are truly blest.
i hope u all realise that.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

randoms rants

countdown to Christmas: - 34 days

the weather has been cool and so christmassy.
the breeze that follows each rainfall is so chilly.

christmas carols are the best music now.
and red, green, gold, silver, black, white are all in fashion!

this is the best time to snuggle up with friends and that special someone.
i'm so glad denise mei is coming back soon! :)
hoping to plan a get-together with different grps of my frens.


worry often follows the things i think about.
esp pertaining to career and just general perspectives on life.
exam results will be released in 2 weeks. i cant deny i'm worried.
really don't know what to expect. and i hate that i don't know what to expect.
about my 1st job, i dont want to make a hasty decision.
neither do i want to feel pressured into anything.
friends ard me have been help to my thot process. thanks, everyone... much appreciated.

of cos, this statement is often heard: "ultimately, the decision lies with you. u hv to make the choice."
it gets tiring hearing that ever so often.
i need happier days. or maybe it's just me.
am i unhappy with myself or am i unhappy with things ard me?
or am i just generally unhappy?
gee. i cant quite tell. that sucks.
i don't wanna be anal and grumpy all the time. i hv enough pple ard me who r like that!
time to hit the beach and just stare out at sea.
i need my space and time.

maybe chocolates/desserts will do me some good! =)
and i wanna go mambo soon!
maybe some free travel?
hahaha! i'm keeping my fingers crossed!

keep warm everyone!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Land Before Time: Little Foot born

the best story ever.

Whatever Baby

she's uber cute! chk her out!

Monday, November 12, 2007

12 Nov 2007 - Luke

this is about forgiveness - a merciful gift from God.

If your brother comes back to you seven times a day and says, 'I am sorry', you must forgive him.

Jesus said to his disciples, 'Obstacles are sure to come, but alas for the one who provides them! It would be better for him to be thrown into the sea with a milestone put round his neck than that he should lead astray a single one of these little ones. Watch yourselves!
'If your brother does something wrong, reprove him and, if he is sorry, forgive him. And if he wrongs you seven times a day and seven times comes back to you and says, "I am sorry," you must forgive him.'
The apostles said to the Lord, 'Increase our faith.' The Lord replied, 'Were your faith the size of a mustard seed you could say to this mulberry tree, "Be uprooted and planted in the sea," and it would obey you.'

to attain inner peace, the best way is to forgive. let go of the hurt and misery.
why keep harping on it? move on and try to make urself happy.
everything happens for a reason.
that's when good and effective communication plays a vital role.
dont ever expect to read each others' minds and nvr expect the other party to know wad ure thinking and feeling if u fail to communicate that across. bcos tt is the root of the problem. expectations and bad communication. the 2 big evils.
it takes alot to apologise. to admit a mistake.
it also takes alot to forgive and let it go.
but isnt that wad love is all about?
it takes 2 hands to clap in this situation, 1 is willing to say sorry. therefore, the other shud be willing to accept it graciously.
if God can be merciful towards us, why cant we be merciful towards the pple ard us?
so lets take a big leap of faith and embrace God's mercy and love.
Forgive someone today!

Sunday, November 04, 2007

02 Nov 2007

thanks for coming!

the cake is absolute yum.
special thanks to them!
my "rose bush"

i thot this was THE "rose bush"


Saturday, November 03, 2007

WYD08 Song - Receive the Power

anybody interested to go? time to save up!

Monday, October 29, 2007

rapidly diminishing positivity

why does it always seem that someone else deserves:
more attention;
more love;
more sympathy;
more care and concern?

or that someone else is:
more poor thing;
more sad;
more tired;
more stressed;
more pressured;
more traumatised;
more upset?

or that someone else's story is:
more sad;
more unfortunate?

cant pple stop comparing for a change?
cant pple just be a little LESS self-centred?
cant there be smthg called mutual understanding; mutual encouragement or mutual motivation?

the world doesnt just revolve ard YOU.

all this negativity is annoying the crap out of me!
just pls snap out of it!

close to you

just like me, they long to be, close to you.
- olivia ong's cover

Saturday, October 27, 2007

spaced out

- currently feeling zonked out -

2 papers down, 1 more to go.
the last and final paper of my life. hopefully.
pls dun get me wrong... it's not tt i'm pessimistic. i'm jus trying to manage my own expectations.
now, it's not abt how much more i can cramp in for the mod.
cos, not only is my brain saturated, i'm super exhausted too.
perhaps my threshold for studies and memorising is really low?
*shrugs* i dont know...
i've come this far, i'm not abt to give up. not now.
i just need to hang in there.
just a few more days. the end is near.
i guess now it's not time to consider the "what-ifs" and scare myself.
just get it over and done with.
do my best! dats just it isnt it?
gosh... the risk and uncertainty is overbearing.
i just hope i can remember my case and the concepts.
i do not wish to be disappointed again. the assignment was painful enough.
God, pls pls pls help me!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

five loaves and two fishes

take my five loaves and two fishes,
do with it as you will,
i surrender...

take my fears, my inhibitions,
all my burdens,
my ambitions,
you can use it all,
to feed them all...

i hope it's not too small...

i often think about that boy,
when i'm feeling small,
and i worry that the work i do,
means nthg at all...
but every single tear i cry,
is a diamond in His hands,
and every door that slams in my face,
i will offer up in prayer,
so i'll give You every breath that i have,
Oh Lord, You can work miracles,
all You need is my Amen...

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

陶喆-天天(David Tao - Close to you)

Leon, u sing great la! haha. thanks for cheering me up dude! :)

Dream a Little Dream - Laura Fygi

bittersweet send-off

she left today just as she did before,
standing behind glass windows,
watching her as she got thru customs,
it was bittersweet,
all i cud do was wave.
a part of me knew she'd be back (most prob) Dec 2009,
that seems so near yet so far.

i got reminded of the day he left too - the familiar sights and surroundings of Terminal 1 wasnt the most pleasant. despite always looking forward to trips to the airport just to look at planes when i was little.

times have changed. pple come and go alot more now.
and it's time i learn to accept it and let go.
the pain cant always remain and haunt me.

i wish her well and i hope she has safely landed.
i know i'll miss my aunt very very much.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

wedding @ Raffles

it was cousin Julian's wedding @ The Ballroom in Raffles Hotel - typical Chinese sit-down 8-course dinner.
it was good.
the wedding couple's "brothers" and "sisters" collectively put together a hilarious video clip - cartoon style of how the two got to know each other thru to marriage.
it's touching, in a cutesy, funny way, really.
nicely done! :)

food was yummy, cept tt dad was wondering how come the cocktail recep is so slack! haha.
they didnt provide any tidbits such as peanuts etc etc. jus drinks... i guess thats the norm these days la. peanuts will be so low class! haa.
perhaps some sandwiches or light snacks might work better.
then again, that concept might not work too well with the whole Chinese dinner.

took a few pix but they r in my aunt's and dad's camera... i didnt bring my own. half the time had to help others take pix instead! haha.

it's nice to finally see Julian get married and settle down... lucky fella is going to Japan and Hawaii for his honeymoon! how awesome!!!
marriage is such a blessed union isnt it? as a kid, attending weddings, my perspective back then was, so happy and envious of the bride cos of her nice puffy/flowy gown! the whole excitement of me dressing up too! haha. i'll hv nice dresses to wear too! =P
now is still pretty much the same mentality, just with some added thoughts...
such as "how if i cannot make it?" or "how if i'm left on the shelf!" hahaha...
but nvm. i believe God has a plan and purpose for me. so just simply trust Him. leave it all in God's hands.
the less u think, the less your worries! ;)

anyway now is one of my crappy periods again...
with exams ard the corner; SM being a pain, stuck at the back of my mind 24/7; my aunt leaving on tues early morn... these suck!
i really need to get thru the next 2 weeks. really.
God knows how worn out i am...
plssssss just let it all go fine...

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

really lovely song =)

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

credits.

when u think of the word credit, what do u tink of?

i think of phrases like:-
'thank you for trying.';
'thank you for ur time.';
'pls try agn next time.';
'nice try.';
'better luck next time.';
'not bad laaaaaaaa...';
'and the credit goes tooooooo *drumrolls*'

credits are what im only worth.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Be Prepared.

"Preparation is everything.
Noah did not start building the ark when it was raining."
- Warren Buffet